Feeling Completely Out Of It. My Cat Had …

Feeling completely out of it. My cat had her last day Saturday. Sunday morning, she passed away. It was very sad, and it being Sunday, we were obligated to keep her body here until this morning. I ironed a nice white linen and put her in her basket and covered it with fresh herbs and flowers and we lit a candle in a quiet cool room in the house. I am really glad we did that. The candle burned well into the night. We took her in this morning to have her cremated. In addition to my cat passing away, I had some news on a personal front that completely threw me for a loop. At first I was just in shock by it, but then today I started to feel the slow burning anger. I went out and began to walk. I walked for about 3 hours, foot be damned. I didn’t even try to work today. When I first left the house, I just felt numb and sad. But then as the day wore on and I realized what was going on, I had to let the anger take ahold. What happens when I get angry? Instead of expressing it, I usually turn it inward. I have identified this problem. During one particular time that I was feeling a lot of frustration and anger back in 2005, I gained about 30 lbs. The urge to eat junk was taking me over today. I was yearning for a fried chicken sandwich, very typical me when angry. Instead, I chose a whole grain bread sandwich with baked chicken, not breaded. But it was still not a good thing to do. Sandwiches are off limits and I know that. There was an angry child inside telling me to do something very bad, and it came out as a burning desire for a chicken sandwich. My effort to control it did not work completely but I was able to head off the danger a little bit. I have to decide what I am going to do with this emotion this time. Am I going to let it destroy me, or am I going to transform it into and outlet and allow myself some self improvement? It is up to me. This afternoon I will make a conscious decision about what I plan to do to work through the anger I feel.

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